It has been great that there have been so many responses to the last post. I hope that this means there is an energy behind exploring this issue. Sadly most of the comments deserve a proper response and yet that would take a long time to do (with each answer generating more questions). So instead I will pick up on one issue that Jason asked me to expand on. Namely, what I meant by saying that some people within the church ‘know what ought to be done yet don’t do it’. So what do I mean? Do I mean that the people I am speaking of have an idea of what an alternative faith community might look like and yet are refusing to create it? No.
Firstly, before saying what I mean I need to clarify what, to any sensitive reader, is already obvious (I shouldn’t even mention it as getting caught up in these silly matters takes away from the real issues). Namely, that my last post is not speaking of people who wish to betray their church because they find it falling short of its ideals, not to their personal taste, or for any other reason related to some consumerist self-interested desire. We all know the simple fact, hardly worth repeating, that churches will be broken because they are filled with broken people like me. I am of course speaking below of people who betray their church in order to show their fidelity to the message housed there, in order to more fully delve into its radical kernal.
Secondly, I was not referring to all concretely existing communities that call themselves ‘church’. Indeed I am open to the idea that the word ‘church’ can be redeemed to refer to various types of gatherings in which people meet together in the aftermath of a life transforming event, listen to the stories of the past, share their lives and attempt to encourage one another in living the way of Christ. However I am not wed to the word ‘church’ either because of what it has come to mean through the predominance of evangelical Christianity on the religious landscape. For instance I personally like words such as ‘cohorts’, and ‘collectives’. Words that not only have less baggage, but which have arisen in the midst of rethinking the nature and role of faith groups. In short, while I do not mean all churches, if you think I am talking about yours: I probably am.
Anyway, to get back to the point, when I speak of the potential revolutionaries within the structure ‘knowing what ought to be done’ I am not meaning that they have a positive understanding of a viable alternative. Indeed I think that this would be pretty much impossible. Rather they need to leave in order to be able to begin to explore alternatives. It is not that they necessarily have to leave their dogmatic church (although this is likely), rather they must free themselves from the linguistic system that sustains that church.
By this I mean that when one is within a particular linguistic system that is the system within which one will understand the world. Any choice made within that system will be a choice understood by the language of that system and thus will be held under its gravitational pull.
For instance, when people leave an evangelical church or engage in a lifestyle not endorsed by that group they will often be labelled ‘backslider’ (a word that refers to someone who has wilfully and knowingly turned away from the truth). This, in itself, is not my main problem (and, more often than not, this term may be an insightful description of the individual). Rather my concern is when someone in a faith community who makes a positive step forward (psychologically, spiritually, intellectually) is labelled in this way because the community does not posses the words to appreciate it. Indeed, this does not really bother me that much in comparison to such people who label themselves as ‘backsliders’. Here the individual, whether they have left the church or not, are still under the sway of that evangelical worldview and thus any positive step forward is still thought of negatively.
The choice to leave is made within the confines of the evangelical system itself and is thus understood within that system. In this way the explicit rejection of it is implicitly an affirmation of it (I reject it not because it is wrong but because I am wrong). The result is that the majority of people who see themselves as ‘backsliders’ will either return to the group they left or continue to define themselves in opposition to it.
The real choice to be made is thus not between staying or going from a particular church. Rather it is a meta-choice concerning whether I continue to interact with the linguistic system that sustains the church or step into an unknown space outside that linguistic system.
Because one is immersed in the system this meta-choice has no positive alternative. It does not have something currently visible on the other side that one can weigh up against what one is currently immersed in (listing off the pro’s and con’s on a spreadsheet). The wager is that, by stepping into the unknown and having the courage to start something that one does not really have any idea about, something truly emancipatory may take place.
For instance, when I began ikon I only had a name, a pub and three weeks before it started. I couldn’t have legitimated what I was doing at the time because I was engaged in a meta-choice – a choice not between two positive alternatives but rather between one linguistic system and a step into the unknown.
So what am I saying? I am saying that not knowing what ought to be done is to already know what ought to be done. In other words, ‘I do not know what I should do and I must step out and do it’! This is not then some commitment to do ‘church’ better by either improving it or starting a new one. For this reconfiguring will still be taking place in the very waters that sustains it. It is not a saying ‘no’ to one known in favour of another known, rather it involves saying ‘no’ to one known in favour of the unknown.
And when the dust finally settles and the new is reified into a dominant dogmatic system, what then? Well let’s get up, draw breath and start the process again – always privileging the weakness of the outside over the powers of the inside.